Writing in my journal has always been a vital part of my day. It’s more than just writing feelings, it’s sharing my thoughts with God in a special way. When I was writing the journal entry below it was the first time I ever thought of sharing one. I think it’s important at times to share the real feelings we face how we learn to work with them and how valuable it is to have them.
July 29, 2018
Thinking and reflecting on how much I love, and learning to love more and more serving my children. At such a young age I get to make them breakfast, snack, see them build up hunger for lunch, snack again, snack one more time then have dinner ready for them. Dinner isn’t always a full-course meal or one of my best dishes. Sometimes it’s simple for a few reasons. Sometimes feeling a little extra tired physically or emotionally. Through it all I have to take a moment, especially right now that they are small, with powerful open minds, listening, watching everything. They are experiencing and feeling the environment around them. As this sinks more into my soul … as I’m writing this I feel unworthy. These two brilliant humans are handed to me to experience the world at my side. I watch how they sleep, how they react, learn & take in everything. So now I think to myself why do we get impatient sometimes? Are we sometimes quick to get frustrated with our kids because “I” am in a hurry, “time is ticking”, because I “have things to do”? I have to stop… and be present… in the moment. ENJOY every moment. I like to have my moments where I stare at my kids and everything around them begins to move slowly I look at the gentle smile in their eyes and issues that seem to be larger than mine get smaller. The solutions to my problems appear to be closer. Everything is beautiful in its place. The moments my daughter is crawling under my desk sometimes disconnecting things while I’m working =/ (who’s been there ?), and when my son has 19 questions right when I have an important phone call 
. Every moment is special and can bring on an interesting smile. My babies have an interesting way of teaching me to be grateful. Although my babies will always be my babies… their young gentle thinking, sponge-like attention, and touch are for a limited time. So I remind myself as much as I can how valuable it is to enjoy the funny spunky age of 4 and goofy curious age of 8. Along with every year and milestone that passes by. Living and being present in the very moment I am in.
Stop for a moment as many times as you can in the morning, after school hours, during dinner, or at bedtime, and analyze the cutest or most interesting thing you find or think about your child. Let everything else stop… as you take in and savor the moment with your child. It’s hard to balance it all at times, but those slow-motion moments can help us be grateful and sometimes put things in the proper positive perspective. God’s mercy and love work the same way. I want to experience moments with my children.
